Day 70: look

This was my day:

Wake up.
Make breakfast.
Study a little.
Drive to class.
Walk in rain to get to class.
Take a test.
Listen to a french man talk for 5 minutes while having dentures.
Leave class not very satisfied.
Sit for hours reading for next class.
Talk about Dexter and real serial killers.
Sit in class and talk about 1930s racism.
Eat dinner.
Talk with dad on skype.
Work out for 2 hours.
Get in bed and watch Youtube. Slash obsess over Tumblr.

Day 68: dangly bits

I'm guzzling down water as I type this. I haven't gone to the gym yet, and I haven't had enough water for the day so thats the reason.

Have you ever parted your hair a different way and then felt like a whole new person?
I did that today. It felt odd. And my hair wanted to go back the way it's always known, so dangly bits kept flying in all different directions trying to find its home. That almost rhymed.
I should just part my hair different ways everyday. Get it really confused. No. I probably shouldn't because i'd stress it out and then I'd get more grey hair.

I'm tired, but I must go to the gym.

Gotta get myself motivated to work on my homework later...

Hope that happens.

Day 67: Decided.

I've decided.

I'm not going to do summer school. I feel like I've just been so stressed with school and so paranoid and worried that if I do this or that or whatever I'm screwed in life. I want to be able to enjoy this time in my life and not worry so much about the small things. I took summer school last year, so I've been in school for awhile. I just think I need a little break. Then I'll be able to really focus on myself this summer. I want to lose this weight. I'm not kidding. Gym is going to become my boyfriend. All my attention is on "him."

Oh man, I'm so tired, but there so much to do today! Clean, vacuum, laundry, gym.

Day 65: Summer school or not?!

So, I've been debating if I want to take summer school or not. Apart of me wants to, to get it over with and graduate sooner, but apart of me is just so sick of school that I don't think I can handle another semester and be 100% focused. Which would probably equal bad grades, and I can't have that. The other part wants to go to work, save up and work on myself by working out a lot. Then after summer, I might miss school and be happy to go back.
 I don't know? What should I do?

Oh decisions, decisions.

Sidenote: I wish that the gym closed at 11 on sundays so I could go work out after work. After doing it for a while, it becomes an obsession.

Alright, gotta do the  dishes, take a shower and get ready for work.

Day 64: productive

I got a lot done today. Like most of my school work, cleaned the house, went to the gym. Pretty much that's it. I'm an exciting lady.

I guess I'm still in that whole kinda want to stay in my own little world phase, so there's really not a lot to write about.

Yup. That's it.

Day 63: I want to go away.

Right now all I want to do is get away. I'm so tired of school, I'm so tired of work, i'm so tired of people and their bullshit. I just want to go away into my own little world and just stay there forever.
I have trust issues and they seem to just keep getting worse and worse. I want to get away from it all. Can't I just have one day to forget all my problems?

Ugh I'm going to work out, and try to clear my head.

Day 62: News

Wow. Found out some shocking news today. Now I'm going to have even more trust issues. Thanks for deceiving me. Appreciate it.