It's not the sickness that I hate the most. It's the battle inside my head that drives me insane. The battles is constantly going, and is never ending, but whenever I get sick, the battle intensifies. I don't know why this is, but it does intensify.
There are two of me fighting. The one I hate, and the one I so desperately want to be.
And every time I get sick, I get defeated, by myself. The one I hate lets me do all the bad things and feel the pain, the guilt and the hurt, but it doesn't let me remember what I've accomplished or done. It's not understanding, but demanding. It kicks me when I'm down, judges me, criticizes me, calls me names, gives me no worth.
It suffocates the me that I want to be.
Hopefully one day I can win.
Whoever survive this,
only one of us can ride forever,
so you and I cant ride together,
can't live or cant die together,
all we can do is collide together,
so I skillfully apply the pressure,
won't stop until I'm forever... one!
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Whoever survive this,
only one of us can ride forever,
so you and I cant ride together,
can't live or cant die together,
all we can do is collide together,
so I skillfully apply the pressure,
won't stop until I'm forever... one!
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